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Posted on May 7th, 2008 in Uncategorized by dsf001

I smoked for the first time in my life…:O I got bored of things and bored of coughing out other people smoke…so i thort why dont i do it…! Mum always tells me that smokings bad. and it can kill you but who doesnt die…?? that was urgent…hahah!..

 And..I had to steal a bottle of coke from the shops…I was thristy!..so I thought I was kool and stole the bottle of coke..i feel so guilty after I drank the coke..mannn if dad knew about this he would bee mad at me! but what else can I do!.? I see Annie do it all the time..!!!!..

Oh and I saw my teacher from my old school! It was so embarrising that she had to lecture me infront of all my friends..she was saying that im really changed and that im not the Hoana that she knew! im like get a life women..who are you to tell me of who I am and what Im becoming…i hate people lecturing me about my life…I hated her back at school…shes always taking the bullys side..! Like I wass hated at my old school and she was one of the teachers that hated me back then.. Man if i can ever turn back time..ill go back and smash her and the bullys, now that Im kool…hahah!

gota go…

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We WON! woop woop!

Posted on May 7th, 2008 in Uncategorized by dsf001

WE ARE DAH CHAMPIONS…x200! DSF 4 LIFEE AND WATT! =P.. i had so much fun…i steel cant believe that we won the whole thingy…i mean cumm’on..South Siders champions && $20,000…dayuumm im like getting FAMOUS here…hahha! It was kool ass dont know what my mum was telling me…if she was here ill be like “I TOLD YOU SO!”..mums now adays..

I guess you guys are dieng to know what hapened at the comp…well the best dance crew from 2005-07 came third..they were a bit upset and they actually wanted to have a re-comp with us..but the judges disagreed with it..yeah thats rite were too good for them…There were alot of dancers from all over the south..and they were really good and Imean GOOD ass..! I can say that the battle was kool and that, but there were bitz that wernt so kool at all..like bunchons and drugos..

Maggy got into one..she had a bunchon with the best girl dancer in the South Side..over this ugly ass guy who was the best Boy Clowner…nah man im for reals..Maggy always talks to me and Annie about him…well Annies seen him but I ddnt..she was like sayn all this shit that Hes HOTT and that..but when i saw him..i was like EWWWWW! he so friken ugly..but i have to say…hes got some moves…ill say that hes an HOT dancer…but not HOT looking..well anyways that girl, her name was SHALOM aka Bubah found out that Aaron aka Buziah was flirting with Maggy..so instead of sorting it out with Maggy she gave Maggy a good hook on the mouth..well at the time she needed it because she was a bit shown off..and when she got that hook i felt sorry for her..but I stil dont know who owns the boy..???????

Man they can fight…! i’de never seen so much violent as what I had just seen..but the guys told me that ill get over it…i just hve to keep it real…hmmmm ill TRY!!! And i saw alot of druggos..i was like OMG! it was funny…one guy came up to me and he askd me if i wanted “TO BUY”..so i was like what kind of “Pies” do you have..! they startd laughn and I realised that they wer asking me if I wanted to buy ‘dope’ from them…i was so ashmed and i never wnt near them guys cause they cant stop laughn at me..

Shamminggg..

My >Street< Life

Posted on May 5th, 2008 in Uncategorized by dsf001

Its been a while since i been on this thing…! But yesss finnaly..im outah home..gtah do the usual thing yah know…dont have to live my life in the past…but I still miss mum and dad…=(..well anywayz..im now in a town calld Mangere..275 Rep..! New kid in the block..ah yerr! Life is AWSOME here..all the peepz are kool asz..people have there own little world! I think im in LOVE with this place…likee evry night thers a Dance thing going on..and likee theres this little hang out place where all people meet and do there thang..! Life on the street is going ohkay..you’ll never get bored if you party all night and roll it down the streets with bunch of HOT guys..! i met heepzz of people..gt alot of friendz. and i jioned a dance crew called DSF perddy kool hah? ;) ..its not like home where everyone at school dislikes me…i find it easy here..i no longer play stupid badminton..but alot of the guys here are suprised because i can play good basketball..

I been staying on the streets with two other guys and three girls..the boys are James and Moses, and the girls are Annie, Xavia and Maggy! they my new buddys and were all in the same dance crew..we sleep at the park right next to this Catholic church…where i go there every morning to pray and to say hello to mum and dad..! We do nothing around here, we dont have to go school, tranings all we do is practice our dance routines and wait for the other peepz to finish school..! Sometimes James and myself would go to the market to get food and the others would be rolling around with other people..!

Tonight theres going to be a DANCE competition with a price of $20,000..we really need that money to live!:S soo weve been practicing our moves…this is a chance of a life time for me…this is my thang..! Mum never lets me dance expecially when its street dancing…shell kill me if she was here…she thinks its violent and thats where some of the people get killed and start trouble…but now i think shes full of crap..she just doesnt like me dancing at all!… but i sooo cant wait..i hope we win!…Were competing against all the dance crews from the South to see whos the best, its not just for the price..but to be known as the best dance crew in the South Side..so all the South Siders are gonnah be there dancing for their lives!…

Thats whats going to happen in the next few hours!!!! and imm so excited…Im so hungry, havnt eating a proper feed in days, I been eating a lot of junk food and i drank to much coke..I feel so dirty..hvnt had a shower for 2 days now..we have to sneek in a gym to have a shower..which is preddy funny..! hmmm yerr thats about it for now..but i gtah gappz now..hve dance rehearsal..

I feel so ALONE now that youre gone..

Posted on May 5th, 2008 in Uncategorized by dsf001

Dayumm! I hate my life at the moment, I hate everyone around me and I hate my parents for living me in this crappy place. Why did they live me here, I wish i was the one that was dead in that car crash…….Im so alone, i have no one to talk to EXCEPT this stupid computer..I want freinds, I want to go school and then again I dont, I want my parents, I want my old life back! And im hungry…..Well today im going to get a life, i really miss my parents but its their fault for living me. My mum told me the day before the car crash, that if she ever dies I have to stay with my grandmama..Im like hell to the no no..never i aint gonna live with that old thang…I dont miss my mum that much cause I never got along with her..but me and my dad! We’re boys…i miss him so much..he was like my best friend and its funny how people thought that my dad was my older bro..hahahhaha well dad if you ever have the chance to appear as a ghost and read my blog..i just want you to know that i miss you so badly..=(!

Anyways, today I decided to drop out of school..! I have no money to pay for it..and I dont want anyone else to pay for my education cause thats me mummy and daddys responsibility!!! And plus I ddnt like going to school much..and my dad knows it..yah noe!..Ohh and did I mention..Im living my home town tomorrow..its for the best anyways…theres to much tension here and i think them people from the house selling thingys is taking over our house..if thats what you call it…! Mann im goona miss this place…maybe someday ill come back and visit…its not the end of the world…

I cleaned up my house…for the first ever time in my lifee..and i came through picts and that…I cryed for a bit.! Its so quiet here….me and dad use taah play rugby in the house and I can here my mum yelling at us…hahhahah! Me and my dad made a hole in the wall once and then we coverd it up with the couch…my mum hasnt found out about it…lmao.! Gosshh, its not fare..that they have to leave..! It feels like theyre not gone, I can still feel theyre presence…everytime I walk through they rooms and evrytime I touch the photo albums..man i miss them! I think im gonna be sick soon if i dont stop thinking about them..

Somehow I was thinking of my mum..so i called her work and asked for her…then the my mums boss came on the phone and started counselling me..I was like…hmmmm what the hell..? lolz..what are you talking about…then i realised that my mums dead…so i hanged up.! I really wish that this is a dream…but everytime I open my eyes, something have to tell me that mum and dad arent here no more…I really have to live this house and somehow I want to move on with my life…but i dont want to… I got a call from one of dads best freinds..he just got back from China and I dont think he knows… he asked to speek to dad..then I called my dad and no one answered…normally my dad would be like..”Who is it?” or “Im coming!”..I kept calling dad..then I burstd into tears and startd to realise that dad is gone….i told him that dads gone…and he asked where..? so i had to be the gossiper and told him..all I can here is him yelling at me to give the phone to my dad! he doesnt believe that mum and dad dont excist in our world no more..can someone at least gve this guy a slap in the head for me..so hell understand..so i hanged up on him..hhaha thast what he get…stupid freek..

I am soo hungry…and I seriusly dont know how to cook…so i ate icecream instead like who does that in this cold weather…if my mum was here shell kill me for doing this…! hahahahah….I miss my mums cooking…theyre yummy ass esp dads deserts..MMMMMM…if mum and dad ever comes back ill get them to cook for me…danngg. if they ever…i feel so sick.! i dont know if its because of the icecream or that im thinkng of mum and dad to much….todays thursday! wow..me and dad wer supose to go basketball tranings…but looks like im not goin..i think i should just stay home and talk to myself..im not in the mood of seeing people and im not use to going tranings without my dad. My dad has been to all of my games…but mum hasnt been to any…and i meann any..! she hasnt seen me play..which is pretty sad of her, shes always busy with work..shes an workaholic! One of them ones..

I went outside to get some fresh air….and i can feel cold breeze brushing my hair back..my dad use to do that all the time…I actually thought that it was dad…but when i opened up my eyes..it was just the wind..Dad i miss you so much…I wish you wer still here..why d u have to leave me…WHY? please come back..ill do everything in my power to get you and mum back…even if I had to deal with the devil to get you guys back…:( thats how much i miss you guys…GOD what do you want me to say to bring my parents back..please! im so alone..i really am i never felt like this before..I feel like im cursed or something…

Mum, Dad..im leaving home today…i really dont want to…but im gonna die here if I keep thinking that you guys are still here…I have to move on with my life…no matter how hard it is to do that..but as what you guys always tell me…that “Someday I have to learn to Stand on my own two feet.!”..i dont know wer ill bee going…but itll be far away from here..i love you guys so much and i miss you so badly…I have to go back up my stuff and clean up the rest of the house..love you..

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Me, Myself And You..

Posted on May 5th, 2008 in Uncategorized by dsf001

My  names Hoana Mclean..and im 16!..i lived in a big town called Howick..and i attend Howick High School.! I love to DANCE but my mum stops me from dancing..so i play Basketball and Badminton instead…like who does that!..? SERIUSLY! My mum and dad passed away not long ago in a car crash…and now im LOST!.. im a LONER..that means i have NO FRIENDS because everyone thinks im weird and all the girls thinks im a DORK!..which im not…! but i dont care…theyre gay anyways..who needs friends??? So if you wanah be my friend be my guest!.=)

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Statement of Intension

Posted on May 5th, 2008 in Uncategorized by dsf001

The theme that I chose is an teenage girl living in the streets with no parents and talk about how technology helped this child to express how she feels without her parents and how life is with her. Both of her parents died in a car crash. Shes now 16 and she dropped out of school because she has no family to look after her and pay for her education. For her to live she has to join a gang and be part of the hood. She joined a ‘crew’ called DSF and she became really aggresive and violent towards herself and other gang members. Her gang became her family, so she did what she wasnt use to doing, for her to get food and survive.

The purpose of this blog is to give teenage viewers a bit of how this girl lived her life without her family, education and without having a proper home to live in. And it would be uselful for some people, so they wont end up like her. Itll talk on how she lived her life in the streets and how she deals in hard times.  

My intended audience would be teenagers ages 14 and onwards. Its for people who has the same issue with this character and for people who lost there parents and how theyre dealing with it.  Itll be useful for adults that are parents, to see how young people deals when were alone without having parents, family, home and education.

The language that im going to use in creating of this blog is Slang Language because shes a teenager living in the streets without education its hard for her to speak proper english and to write effectively. Im also going to use some text writing, there would be unappropiate language to express her anger and when shes making trouble with other people (other gang members). Most of the headings will have something to do with ‘GANGS’ and ‘missing her parents’ and its going to be in ‘graffiti format. There would be music to show how she feels each day and what feelings she has inside. Theres also pictures in it mainly to show people what she represents and who she is.  As what I have stated above, the most obvius feature that I would see in my folio piece is the music and the slang language. It would help to attract teenage viewers because most of them understands better than adults. I think that this feature would help me get my point across to other teenagers and young people would view this blog because of the music that is used in it.